November has been a busy month; good things, bad things, and everything in the middle. It could be said that I've spent the month completely ticked off, as usual. Admittedly, I have a bad attitude. But Thanksgiving was wonderful. I loved spending time with my family, playing games, eating food, and relaxing.
First, Randy and I went to my in-laws. At that point, I had been working full-time, going to school full-time, and wasn't in the mood to bake like I normally am. Linda offered to cook everything. (Bless her heart!) I made a green bean casserole and brought soda. That's it! Wow. It was great. In all honesty, I thought it would really bother me. I mean, I love to cook, I love to be bragged on (it's not pretty), and I love being in my own house. But it was fantastic, and I really appreciate her being willing to do that for me. The food was awesome!
Then we had Mom, Brianna, Jeni, and Dwight over to our house. We watched The Biggest Loser (shouting what jerk John is the entire time!!!!), visited, and ate. :) Good times! The day wasn't long enough to fit everything in, but it was heaven.
I feel blessed for my family. <3
I handed in my 2 week notice at work, after cameras were installed. I'm surprised I made it a month after that. They followed me around everywhere, there was a microphone snaked under the cabinet that came up to my face, and I've never felt so uncomfortable. I got e-mails about EVERYTHING! I won't list everything. Nothing major; just letting me know they were watching me. The thing is, I didn't have many customers, which could be an understatement, and I didn't have enough things to possibly fill two hours, much less an entire work day. I couldn't read a book, listen to radio that had talking, crack open a magazine, or slump in my chair. I challenge one of you to go sit in front of your computer in dress-up clothes, don't turn it on, and sit there for 6 hrs. (Just to assume I did, indeed, have enough work for 2 hrs.) Go ahead. Try it. You won't make it 30 minutes. I should mention I was encouraged to make up Excel spreadsheets for nonsense information. Someone please tell me the reason for that.
Well, not working there has taken a huge burden off my shoulders. I'm freaking out because of money, and yet, less stressed than I've been in so long. I absolutely have to find a job as soon as finals are over, though.
Speaking of, my first semester is just about down the hatch! Yahoo! I have only one more week of classes. In History, I don't have a final, but an extra credit assignment instead. Two finals are next Saturday, and two are next Tuesday. That's it! I am enrolled for next semester, and I'll be glad to be done with this one. Physics was my most difficult class, by far. However, Computers gave me a fit, too. :( Sad to say, I'm not as smart as I thought myself to be in some areas. Well, one thing my GEP class has taught me is that I am a scholar; that doesn't mean I know everything. That means I can study anything. Even if I have strengths and weaknesses, I can do this!
I helped Teri with her Christmas Open House for a few days, and it was so relaxing and fun to hang out with her and Olivia. I haven't been able to spend that much time with her for several years, and I loved it! I may have been more of a pest than anything, but it was liberating to not be at work. Working six days a week took a toll on me, and Teri even mentioned I was stressed out and wasn't fun anymore. I know what she meant. Almost like I wasn't the same person; not mean, but just stretched to my limit. I felt like a huge drain.
Now, at home, I am a drain, seriously. I am not pulling my weight. I feel badly for Randy.
I wonder why it is, though, that when we feel mad at ourselves, we act mad at other people. It makes no sense to me. And yet I do it. I will say, I feel hormonal and impossible to please. I'm not going to try and reason through my madness right now. I have too many school things to think about, and I refuse to drive myself crazy. I'm chalking it up to getting through a few things, and not worrying too much that I don't feel exhuberant joy bubbling from within. Maybe it'll come. Things (and people) ebb and flow. I have learned that. Some days there will be bliss. Some days there will be poo. Right now I kinda feel like poo, although not nearly as much as a month ago. ;)
I am getting off here to do some laundry and get ready for the week. Or maybe to go to bed early. Either way, it's goo'night to cyberland for now!!
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